Dirty Pain

Dirty pain cycles from foggy to scary. So scary it gets pushed back into the fog. Dirty pain gets foggy by numbing. Numbing the emotions with whatever makes it stop. 

Foggy pain feels like relief from the dirt… but actually just delays it for a bit. The pain is dirty because it slaps harder once you get off the numbing merry-go-round. Facing the pain feels like a threat. The brain sees it just like a junkyard dog chasing you. 

Clean pain is the same pain, but without the fog. Clean pain is felt in all it’s detail with a present mind. A mind that is clear enough to ask for a little help. It’s worth learning how to move through the pain. The merry-go-round will make you dizzy and slap you down when the music stops.

MG: Nic Lesmeister